I am back, finally. Thanks for the applause, it's time for some new learning.
I just went to a university nearby (PU, chandi- for those who know how cool it is). A place of great opportunity, that is what it is. I won't write b.s. because all that I did today was check out the chicks (all shapes, sizes and kinds of women rolling around the place) and asked for directions. Though I did pretend to ask for directions and I was practicing some approaching kind of stuff, the girls were very responsive and helpful, as they all should be.
An interesting thing (and very obvious) I noticed today was that after reading or listening to something good and motivating (I was reading 'Illusions by Richard Bach' this morning) I feel more in control of myself. It makes me feel relaxed and actually, powerful. I must add though, that I had been missing this for the last few days, rolling into stupid, unresourceful emotions which I should not have done. But I am now back on the track.
I was in my college yesterday where I found myself literally missing being here as a student. I was all the time around friends, so many beautiful, vulnerable (in the good sense) chicks and my lovely teachers who simply could not find a way to control my naughty tricks. What a memory! In the midst of my roaming inside the college, I saw one of my juniors (girl) I had never noticed carefully before grown up into a full-blown woman. So beautiful, so filled with feminine energy. "What a difference an year can make", I murmured. And in that moment, something inside me literally shouted, "You deserve her, and all other beautiful and virtuous women around!". In that moment, I took a vow, that I am going to take control of this part of my life, WOMEN!And a normal mind wouldn't just believe, I literally feel very powerful, much more in control, noticing myself in situations with a lot of women around and GROWING! I am taking action and now I know that I am going to take control. It's wonderful.
